if you died now, would people notice? would people actually say “hey, where’s ______” and be worried? Would the last conversations you held with certain people satisfy where you left off? Would the things you thought made you a burden, ease a little? Would the people you love know that you had loved them? Would the people who you thought hated you rejoice? There will be something good out of it though…i hope.
if you died now, would people notice you gone?
@1 year ago
I’m pretty excited for this upcoming year. New York, new job, and I can finally get away from all this. ’This’ as in my dad yelling constantly, the scene, and my dad trying to destroy my hopes of becoming who I want to be. I’ve seen it all, the lights, the publicity, and the fame. But that was just a vision, a daydream of possibility- and in this case, all I need is an affirmative request upon him.
Hello new me, goodbye old. You’ll always be an internal tortured memory that gratifies the hope and optimism within, and I’ll forever thank you for that.
@2 years ago
@2 years ago with 2 notes
#tues #april 12 2011 #12:55 am
it’s been a while since i’ve visited your blog. well, i still havent, and i don’t think i will anytime soon. It’s been good keeping my mind off of things, and im for sure you’re doing great with everything :) usually, when i’d clean out my desktop/files and run into pictures of you i’d sometimes just “reminisce” or i’d start to have nostalgia of the stuff we’d used to do. but now when i see a picture of you, i’d close the window super fast and forget-
I think it’s better for me that way. i’m doing good. life is good. to be honest i’ve tried “dating” and i actually don’t want to do it. lol i’m taking a human sexuality class and it’s making me think about sex, relationships, and stuff like that. i don’t think i’ll be having sex with anyone anytime soon. haha (it’s an iffy thing for me)
but yeah- hope everythings goin fabulous for you. lol okies
I already knew it was just false hope that kept me going so I already stopped thinking about you. If you’re there, you’re there. If not, then you’re not.
@2 years ago